Necessary Venting

If you are one of the few people that knows me closely, you know that I overthink and overanalyze everything, and I mean EVERYTHING. If something is not “how it should be”, I tend to focus on that specific something and try to figure out why it’s not how it should be and how I can get it to be the way it needs to be. This unfortunate characteristic (sometimes it feels more like a disease *sigh*) plagues various portions of my life, and lately it has seeped in to my trading routine. Like most of the annoying things we do that are unbeknownst to us, it is very difficult to stop doing these relatively automatic behaviors due to their habitual nature. This is like the turning point in a relationship where all the cute little things your significant other does that were endearing at first, are now utterly mind-numbing and you have to decide whether to stick it out or heave home. Once you realize your annoying natural reactions or behaviors, you can’t “heave home”, you gotta figure out how to deal with yourself and how to make these behaviors less common.

As fun as it is to evaluate yourself, it is extremely important to do so at various stages in your life. I figured out my unyielding thought process and its negative aspects when I was about nineteen, but I wasn’t mature enough then to handle it. Fast forward to now, 6 years later, and I am still struggling with myself, but to a lesser extent. Now, if you haven’t read my previous posts, I tend to blog more about behavior because I feel that most people underestimate how much it affects your ability to trade. You can learn all the technical aspects of trading, but if you can’t master your emotions or reactions, then it won’t do you much good. I feel like today I let my thought process be overwhelmed by fear and doubt, which in turn led me down a very familiar path of overthinking and overanalyzing. So I placed a trade, and surprisingly enough (NOT) it didn’t go very well. As disappointed as I was, I was also relieved because I knew what the problem was and that being harsh with myself would only make the situation worse. I have a long way to go in handling my annoying/automatic overthinking, but I’m getting closer to being the person I “need” to be and I enjoy the pace and path I’m taking to get there.

P.S. Those annoying little things your significant other does…well love makes those things extremely hard to do without.

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